Numb now

I made it. Encased everything for later. The life as it was ends, life as it will be does not interest me much since it won't be anything I wanted. But it will do. It has to, as always. I made my requests for it, this time i won't accept second best values: If I have to go that way I don't owe anyone anymore. They owe me now. Every single one. I won't be a bargain.