If there were nothing else there were at least myself...
What should i say now. Standing in front of the brightest Star of them all i asked how to cope with all this - what am i doing here anyway, what is it that always drives me out, walking, wandering, flying around and always trying to save what can't be saved. He said, you could just give up your stupid, arrogant claim for neutrality, this would give you a lot of friends on your side and foes on the other. You could stop thinking over all your actions again and again, because either side you take - there will be the comfort of someone telling you what is right and just.
I can't fight the feeling, that he likes me to be neutral. Perhaps he knows, that as long as i am on the grey path i am not lost for him. Perhaps he does not want me to be his enemy. I would like to be sure, that this is not for political reasons but just because somehow he likes me.

A list of good diversion
This is a list for those interested in good entertainment without letting the brain go donut

1. The Prophecy
the best example of how an occult world works. And its funny, thrilling and stylish!

2. The Prophecy II
The sequel works out the religious themes in deep, because you already know the occult world from the first movie.

3. The Prophecy 3: The Ascent
The conclusion of the angelic tale. A classic, highly detailed messias-plot with great Hong Kong style fighting scenes (really!).

4. Highlander - 10th Anniversary Edition
The one and only. Why occult? You have a hidden group with ancient rules that noone questions or breaks.

5. Poltergeist 2: The Other Side
Hidden in the plot they merged two original american occult lores: Lovecrafts "white" Chtulu-myth and the american-indian "native" occultism.

6. The Prisoner
See them all. You will find everything: Magic, scientology, occult groups, brainwashing, trickster work, wizardry and enlightenment.

7. Excalibur
Excalibur tells you 3 stories: The plot itself, the pictures (look for "frames" and "openness") and the characters as archetypes. This movie is a must!

8. Conan the Barbarian
The first Conan movie revokes perfectly R. E. Howards mythical Hyborean setting, which itself again lies in the Lovecraft universe. The ultimate classic fantasy movie as well.

Don't look back?
Don't look back is not only the title of one of the most disturbing and frightening movies ever made but also one of the advices you will often hear when it comes to facing the next challenges, climbing the next mountain (just to find another one just behind that one). But isn't it important to know where we come from? To be aware of all we've gone through yet? Every failure and every success helps to understand the direction and prevents us from false and too fast decisions.