Time is running

in my head and heart it's still March, and i know that it is ridiculous to stick with that. And I'd like to go on. But something in me tells me, i can't because it is not finished yet. Not finished properly, it's not yet as it should be. My thoughts are coming back to this day again and again, asking and doubting and trying to get it, so that i could find a solution how to handle it, how to cope with it. Right now i'm getting more and more impatient, i really want to move on. I just can't find a direction.