When everything you do, has nothing to do with what you want to do, when everything you are is only an empty shell that everyone else uses for their projections and when everything you feel is only usable for just getting over this day, you know that there has something to be changed.
I'm at that state for months now, i found myself there some time ago. It's like walking against the waves and as soon as i hold still i will be flooded back. But it's too hard to go forward. So, i decided to turn the tide. I don't know, how to do it, yet. But i will begin to find that out from today on.
