After some thinking, i come to the conclusion that i do not want to love unconditionally. I have some conditions, for my own sake and sanity: There must be a common base. There must be a verbalized will to hold to the other one. I will not be able to keep together a relation all by myself, letting the other be the one who may doubt and hesitate all the time. Well, i could be able, but i don't want to. I lived through such a model for years - it does not work and did wear me out.
I need to be trusted, but I also want to be able trust my partner. I'm loyal, but i need loyalty. I want a love that stands time. I don't need kicks, either high or low. And if i can offer something, then it's stability: My love never ends.
