Why I am doing this to me?

Easy answer: Because I love. Love is worth everything, giving up is no option. But I refuse to stick to a preordained path. And all will happen as she said, if she does not change. All she changes is outwardness: Color of hair, arrangement of furniture. Inside she sticks with her habits that will just run in the same circles. If she does not feel the need to break out of this, I will need to break up. Because of love. I told her that i won't put pressure on this, but when i don't do it, she will not stay.