Tired beyond belief

i would like to sleep for some weeks and wake up without headache and with a fresh and clean brain. I don't argue anymore, no matter what. I'm fed up with it. I'm more than fed up with it, i just have the urge to throw up and rather to go blind and deaf instantly, to run as long as i can until i'm anywhere where noone and nothing bothers me, than even have to see or hear another word of all those people and topics that drained me for months. Or years. I get mobbed in my dayjob, i get used as scapegoat in my private life, i get robbed and spied on by the country i live in. Everyone seems to mistrust me, not seeing, that they just can't let me be as i am. I don't want to be what they want me to be. I think, that what i am is something, that can be liked and appreciated as well, or even more.